now, i don't see a point of becoming a happier person just because you entered my life. because not only you entered my life, you brought your sweetheart along.

and i just realised it. probably not, because you're acting skills were so good that i actually felt love oozing from you to me. your SKILLS were that good. i'm just one of your dumb audiences that happened to feel your love during this short period of time. i'm just someone that you happened to pick upon from sooo many people for you to show your love & attention and than cast me aside, simply because, you found your new partner.

like wow. but it's okay i guess, cause we were never together, right?

i don't see a point why should i be happy because of you. because, you were the cause of both misery and happiness.

what are you? a monster? a demon? a cockroach? now stay away from me and i'll stay away from you because i want time to heal my wounds. maybe i should delete all your smses in my phone.

maybe i should start from taking your picture away from my wallet and all the pics we took together should be hidden in a secret folder. where i will gradually forget about it.

because of you, i became happier.
now because of you, i'm miserable.

now, i want YOU to forget about the promise you made me. so that there will be no more link in between to both of us. i want to walk down the street and past YOU and don't feel my heart thumping and having the urge to call you name.

by right, i should stop seeing you in that group of friends. but i can't. and i feel like such a loser.

i should just walk away. no, i will walk away.

and all the "nots" i should have done, i know i can't do it.

for now, allow me to just fake it when im with you. like i dont know anything at all.

and dont rub salt to my wounds. please.